Dossier Somewhere in China

Ok, so I started to check the DHL tracking number for our Dossier. Well, as of today, our documents are sitting somewhere in China because they can't be delivered. One record says that the recipient has moved. Then later on it says that the recipient has refused the package. So who knows where they are now. In my earlier post I said that I wasn't overly excited when I heard that we were DTC that I would be more excited when I heard we had a LID. Well, when I first went to the DHL website and put my tracking number in I was very, very excited. I was going to have proof that my dossier was there. Well what a surprise I got. Sure it's in China, but just not where it is suppose to be. It's like a bad dream that I can't wake up from. I know that we are not the only ones that are having problems with this process, but that doesn't make it any easier either. I feel bad for me and all the other people that are having a hard time of it.

Hopefully tomorrow will bring us better news.

DTC

Well, we finally have DTC. We got the call on July 13th, 2006 that our dossier will be sent to China on July 14th, 2006. I thought that I would have been more excited about this phone call, but I was just like "Ok, Thanks". It was a weird feeling. I guess I really didn't believe it was finally happening. I am excited now though. I will be overjoyed when we get the phone call saying we have a LID. Getting to this point has been one of the hardest times in my life. I know it will all be worth it in the end as it was when I was having my son. All the hardships I lived through when I was having my son was SO very worth it when he was born. I know in years to come I will look back on this time in my life with a great big smile while I watch my children grow into wonderful adults. Life is good.

I171H

Well, it finally arrived. Our I171H approval arrived on Sat. June 17th, 2006. I knew before hand that we were approved though. I called immigration on Tuesday June 13th and left a message. Then on Wed. June 14th I called at 9:00 am and left another message. At 9:30 am the phone rang and it was immigration. The man was laughing and telling me not to call anymore that my approval was in the mail. So of course I kept asking him if he was sure that we were approved and he told me yes like 12 times and then said "now you don't have to call anymore" and then said goodbye. So I burst into tears of joy and called my husband and then ran downstairs and told my mother. It was a happy day for us. But I got the approval paper on Sat. and now this week I take all my documents and head into Manhattan to authenticate them and hopefully by the end of July off to China they go. I think once we get the LID I will be able to rest easier. I know the wait is getting really long, but there is nothing we can do about it at all so we will wait our turn and hopefully it won't take more then 12 months. I would be happy with any travel date as long as it is in 2007. That is our wish, that we travel to China in 2007. But no one knows. Our friend Lori is in China as I write this. Her daughter Paige is absolutely beautiful. When I opened the e-mail up that she sent I was overjoyed. The Child is precious. I cannot wait to bring our little Lily Rose home. Until next time...

BEAUTIFUL POEMS

I found some beautiful poems and I want to share them with all of you.

KISSES IN THE WIND

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.
I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, We love you so and God will keep you strong.
Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...
Because tonight, just as always, we blow you Kisses In The Wind.
May God hold you in His hand until we can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, we are doing all that we can do.
Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, we blow you Kisses In The Wind.
May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the Angels bring the Kisses that we send to you each night.

THE GIFT OF LIFE

I didn't give you the gift of life,
but in my heart I know.
The love I feel for you is deep and real,
as if it had been so.
For us to have each other is like a
dream come true!
No I didn't give you the gift of life,
life gave me the gift of you!

It feels like slow motion

Today I felt like my life was in slow motion. My homestudy should have been sent to immigration 2 weeks ago. That is all they are waiting for. Fingerprints have been checked. I really wanted to call the whole thing off today. I was really hoping to have DTC in June sometime and LID in July sometime. Well that will not be happening now. Who know's when that will be. The way it looks now, we will be lucky to travel to China in 2008. Which will be impossible because China is hosting the Winter/Summer Olympics. Chinese New Year is in February. So basically China will be closed down for the first 3 months of 2008. So if we don't get to travel in 2007 it will be a 2+ year deal from start to finish. That is very depressing. I have a few things to keep me busy though. My beautiful son, my wonderful husband, my family and the OHGWQ yahoo group that I joined recently. I got involved with 4 swaps right away. I finished the Ladybug and Butterfly swaps. I have the Ballet & 100 Good Wish Asian swaps left. I really like doing them now. If my friends from 20 years ago knew that I was so into exchanging fabric and wishes, the emergency rooms would be filled. LOL I will have well over 100 squares and wishes for Lily Rose soon. The ones I have received so far are great. Most of them are from the groups I joined. Only have 4 from my family and friends so far. But that's ok, we have a long way to go yet. So no rush. I really need to add some more things to this blog. I REALLY need to find someone to help me. Well, that's it for now. Until next time...

It's Been A While

It's been a while since I was here. So many things have been going on in the last month. My mother had a major operation and thank God everything went well. She is home and recovering. We are waiting to hear if we have immigration approval. All of our documents are waiting in Delaware at Adoption House (our agency) to get authenticated. I was hoping to have DTC & LID by the end of June. I don't see that happening now. Hopefully July. Well, It's Mother's Day and I really need to go and spend quality time with my beautiful son. Hope you all have a great Mothers Day.

Homestudy is completed

Well, we had our last visit with our social worker on Sat. The 29th of April. She actually came to meet us at my girlfriends house because my Goddaughter made communion on that day. So it was the only time our SW had for the next 2 weeks so I told her if she didn't have a problem meeting us there we didn't have a problem with it. So she came, we talked and that was that. She will be sending our completed homestudy to our agency today and hopefully they will get it to immigration by the end of this week. All of our documents are ready to be authenticated and that is a good thing. The paperchase was a nightmare. It took a lot out of me. But in the end it will all be worth it. We will have a beautiful little girl and my son will have the sister he wants really bad. He told us that next year he would like a brother. lol So I probably will be in the same boat again next year. I'm sure that we will adopt again. For us, it really is a wonderful experience. So I guess now begins the real test of the heart. THE WAIT. We will just have to hang in and keep our fingers crossed.

Dolls for Lily Rose

I went a little e-bay crazy. I won all these dolls for Lily Rose. I couldn't help myself. I actually have 2 more that just came in, but they are at my cousins house. I think I have enough for now. My son was really not happy that I won all these dolls for his little sister and nothing for him, so of course I had to do a little more bidding and I got some stuff for him too. Now everyone is happy. The things we do for our kids.

Our Wedding Picture

This was a test to see if i could post a picture. Well this was our wedding day. Nov. 13, 2004. My son Joseph looked so handsome that day. I can't believe it's almost 2 years ago already. Time sure does fly.

A RED THREAD

A red thread to China was cast today from us to a child so far away. This thread symbolizes an attachment of hearts, that distance alone can't keep us apart. This tiny, thin thread may stretch, tangle or fray, but our love for her grows stronger each day. Through the test of time it won't break or sever, she'll be a part of us forever and ever. So for now we'll just love her and pray everyday that God keeps her and loves her for us till we may travel to China, that land of great past, to the side of our daughter, to hold her at last.

USCIS Fingerprint Date

As I was leaving to go up to my son's school for his Spring Party today, the mail came early. It never comes early. As I was looking through I came across the envelope from USCIS. In it was the date for our fingerprints. April 19th 2006. I was jumping up and down like a little kid and my mother who lives downstairs from us came running up the stairs and the look on her face was priceless. But after I told her that we had the date, she started jumping up and down too. It was a great site to see since she just had an operation. Then I called my husband and thank god he didn't start jumping at work. lol So needless to say we are a very HAPPY family today. I also sent out to all my family and friends our "100 Good Wishes" letter. So that is very exciting too.

1st Post

I hope this works. I am so new to this. I have looked at some beautiful blogs. I can't believe some of them. I hope mine will be just as beautiful one day. This is such an exciting journey. I always hoped that I would get to this point in my life. Thank God for my wonderful husband and my beautiful, funny, loving son. They are so happy about this adoption as is most of my family and friends. Although it is a long and hard journey it will be so worth it when Lily Rose comes home. Every morning when I wake up I wish it was the day we leave to bring her home. But, that will not be until next year. My God, next year! How will I survive. With the help of all my family and friends. But most of all with the help of my husband and son. Until next time.....