Thursday, November 23, 2006

Happy Thanksgiving

I just wanted to wish everyone a very Happy Thanksgiving.

I had so much to be thankful for this year. My son is healthy, my mom and brother are great, Anthony and I are healthy, but most of all we were blessed with a beautiful daughter. I thought of her often today and had some sadness wondering what she was doing and if she ate enough and if she was warm enough. I am sure most of all the parents in our situation had the same thoughts. But, I kept telling myself that soon, very soon we would be on our way to bring her home and we will never have to think these thoughts again, God willing.
I felt bad also because I did not make it to the cemetery to see my father. My father had 2 days out of the year that were his favorite. Thanksgiving and Christmas. When my parents split, I never spent another Thanksgiving with my father because it was the one holiday that my mother had at our house. With 4 sisters and a brother each one took a holiday. I would call him and talk with him, but didn't go to see him. He lived in Brooklyn and we lived in the island. I'm sure that it hurt him and I never really thought about it because he always said he understood, but now that he is gone, boy do I feel bad about it. I was never really close to my dad growing up, but when I got older things changed. We had our times that we didn't talk for a while but I always loved him. The best memories I have of my father are the times that he spent with my son. My father got sick when Joseph was 4 and he didn't want my son to see him get sicker and sicker. He died within 3 months. It took along time for my son to get use to that. I still can't believe it.
Wow, I guess I needed to get that off my chest tonight. In all my joy and happiness I still have some sadness . But isn't that always the way.
Well, I hope that everyone had a great thanksgiving and I am going to bed now because I will be up and out by 3 am to shop.


lara said...

We dont celebrate thanksgiving over here in the UK but im glad you had a good day , and next year you get to celebrate as a family of 4 , how good will that be!!

Jenni said...

Hey Lisa!! Getting anxious are ya!! It was nice to read your post about your dad. My dad and I have distance between us and I call every Thanksgiving as well. I can foresee myself having feelings just like yours in the future. You loved him and that's what's important.
Praying for speedy TA!!